So it's Christmas Eve. The streets are bright with decoration and Christmas spirit. I am spending the time with my Mother, one of the only times i come up to see, i am ashamed to say. I have been here four days, and to being honest of slept most of the day as i have been chatting online with my friend. Anyway i have needed to smoke since i got here, and not being a person that really indulges in alcohol anymore, i was getting bored. Anyway today i received a call and managed to get some. Now the one thing that smoke, does for me is makes me think, and whether it is because i am feeling the effects or that's the way my brain would choose to give it to me, but it's like a cartoon light bulb going off in my head, it always makes me chuckle. Anyway on this occasion the thought came into my head not for the first time i may add but this time it felt different. I need to sop smoking!!!
So this is the first entry in my attempt to stop smoking. Now i am going to be as honest as i can about this as i can. I have been smoking for half my life. When you look back at it that disgusting. Haven't achieved half the things i could of if i wasn't smoking. So i need to be realistic, cold turkey isn't going to work, because i am a grumpy bastard and when i don't smoke i am worse, hell just check my Facebook wall, 90% of it is moaning, and the other 10% is people telling me shut up. So i need to set goals, my first goal is my birthday in mid February. But that time i want to be doing half of what i do now, and by end of summer i want to have stopped.
As i can't keep shit to myself i will write it down as i go. The Beginning of the End.
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